Abuse and Trauma teach or inform your brain or your personality that trying does not lead to eventual success be aware that this is a lie programmed into you because of your horrible experience when it was true. My team is researching how to reverse learned helplessness with BrainTap, Psychotherapy, and your determination coming back alive. Take a look at this article: Learned helplessness is the psychological reason you are stuck in a bad situation

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